to write a serious post or not???
warning: this post is only text, so if you like the fluffy stuff. this will be too much for you :)
i feel like i'm a pretty open person. and i'll share my story if it will help someone else. or sometimes it's even good for me to share just as a way of processing through things on my own.
but there's something about posting it on the internet...
not that i mind sharing with new friends and followers, but ANYONE can read this blog, and for some reason, i get slightly weirded out by that.
never the less, here i go. sharing.
looking for adoption grants and loans has been really frustrating.
first of all, they aren't in one central place. i have spent hours online researching...
only to find...
we aren't working with a 501c3, so we can't apply for some grants that require you work with a 501c3
we aren't going international so that takes out a lot of grant opportunities
and the hardest catch 22 thing we have to continually deal with is this:
once we go active and are placed with a birth mom/baby
(which practically speaking, when you go active with our agency and are adopting a black baby, you are matched typically in less than 24 hours)
our agency requires the full remaining balance as soon as you're matched,
most grants/loans won't give to you until after you've been matched.
so...it's a weird and sad place to be.
so, that's where we are at right now in our adoption funding journey.
i just feel tired.
i feel like i've put so much into all this.
i don't know what to do next...